no. 19

I know I haven't posted in a long time. I haven't had patience or concentration for it. Now by saying that, I'm not going to promise that I have enough patience or concentration even right now. I mean, I've already had to pause this sucker for a few hours because I wanted to get some new music.
Moving on.
The past few weeks have been pretty interesting. I don't really feel like catching everyone up. (Exhibit A: No patience.) Basically, I went to Geneva and I went to Milano. Well, technically Pavia. Italy is incredibly gorgeous and I can't wait to go back. I love it there.
The only reason I'm posting today is because I want to express one certain thing. That is, sometimes you just know exactly what you want to do and you know that it's going to be good for you. I had this feeling when I dropped out of college, and when I started working at ANiU, and when I bought my plane ticket to Switzerland, and most recently, deciding to move to Louisville after this year is over. In an equal yet totally different way, I am so glad that I'm able to talk to Micaela, Ethan, and Eron. It feels good to be in touch and talk like normal with your first real best friend. It feels good to have someone who understands you. It feels good to have someone who makes you feel good inside, who makes you breathe a little easier.
On the other hand, it does not feel good to be alone here. I am not being proactive with meeting people in my town, but I am pretty good at going out of town and meeting people. I am not liking being alone in my apartment. I wish I had a pet, more specifically a kitten. I just don't want to be alone anymore, and I don't mean seeking "one night stands" or a meaningless relationship while I'm here just for comfort. I couldn't do that.
I could keep going, but I am tired and it's getting late here.
Show me the way to go home... I'm tired and I wanna go to bed... I had a little drink about an hour ago and it's gone straight to my head...